The Funk

So The Funk. What is it?

No not funky music. Not something great. Not something hip hoppity.

The funk – for me – is blah.

Blah – you know. Just blah. No energy, not really into anything, not really excited about anything.

Some may call it depression, seasonal depression, winter blues. And while all of those are real and I have been affected by all three before, this isn’t it. It’s just the funk. I have no other word to call it – just a funky mood.

This morning I was reading Day 5 of Wendy Blight’s Five Day Devotional and it was on God’s name Immanuel (God With Us). One of the scriptures was Romans 8: 37 – 39. I decided to read it from The Voice and personalized it like this:

37) But no matter what comes, I will always taste victory through Him who loved me. 38) For I know every confidence that nothing – not death, life, heavenly messengers, dark spirits, the present, the future, spiritual powers, 39) height, depth, nor any created thing – can come between me and the love of God revealed in the Anointed Jesus our Lord.

Then this got me to thinking and got me to journaling and I realized that one thing that worries me is that when I get in this funk, does Jesus still love me? So this verse came at a great time to help reassure me that Jesus does love me. He saved me. He died for me. He is with me and I have to believe that nothing can separate me from Him.

And while I know that, I’m still in this funk.

I wish I knew why I get in a funk like this but I really have no clue. Is it the devil trying to keep me from doing what God wants? Or is it something simple like being human? Just one of those things. My body being what is it – older, dealt with serious illness like cancer years ago, fighting asthma. Which, I know that’s some of it. Or at least the energy part. And there’s nothing like waking up at night not being able to breath.

So I know some of it is physical. And the fact that I don’t eat right probably has some to do with it too. The time of the year probably plays a part in it as well. I may never know exactly why I have the funk. And it probably won’t be the last time as this isn’t the first time that I’ve been in a funky mood. But what’s making a difference this time is that I’m realizing how much I’m letting this mood affect my walk with God.

So, I don’t know that the devil is why I’m in a funk. But I do know I’m letting him use it to hinder my serving God. It happened shortly after being invited to be on the launch team for Wendy Blight’s new study “I Know His Name” and starting the companion five-day devotional series “Five Days to Knowing God More Intimately.” The first chapter and the devotional series is amazing. You can check it out at www.wendyblight.com.

Then of course our next P31OBS is beginning the study Monday on Lysa TerKeurst’s book “Becoming More Than a Good Bible Study Girl”. While I’m excited about it, I’ve not been involved as I normally would have been. (If you’d like to sign up for #BecomingMore, go to http://proverbs31.org/online-bible-studies/current-study. You’ll love it!)

I’m excited about both of these ministries, I just haven’t participated like I had planned on. Too busy? Nope, not hardly. I haven’t been in a mood to really get involved. Just the funk.

Even when I should be digging deeper into God’s word, I want to pick up my crocheting and just veg out in front of the TV. Just the funk.

Nothing can come between me and God. This is what I need to keep telling myself and stop letting this funk try to take away my time with God.

I like The Voice’s interpretation of Philippians 4:13: “I can be content in any and every situation through the Anointed One who is my power and strength.”

I can rise above this funk because the Lord strengthens me. He is my power and strength.

Deuteronomy 4:29 is a verse I love to read in both the NKJV and The Voice.

NKJV
“But from there you will seek the Lord your God and you will find Him if you seek Him with all your heart.”

The Voice
“But when you’re there, you’ll look for the Eternal your God. If every part of you is invested in the search, heart and soul, then you’ll find Him.”

Every part of you invested. Seek Him with all your heart and soul.

When I’m in this funk I know He’s there, I’m grateful and thankful He’s there, but do I seek Him with all my heart and soul? No. Do I thank Him with every fiber of my being? No. Even if the funk is just one of those things, I’ve let the devil use it to keep me from God.

I know from past experience I’ll come out of it. What I need to do is stop letting the devil use it. Even in the funk I can seek God. In fact, that’s when I really need to seek God. He is my strength and my comfort. He is Adonai Sal’i – God our Rock – my Rock. He is my Rock, my fortress and my salvation.
(See, I really am excited about Wendy’s new book #IKnowHisName!)

 

My Rock

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I’M SORRY

I’m sorry if I met you and never shared Jesus’ love for you.

I’m sorry if you never saw Jesus’ love in me.

I’m sorry if you did see or did hear but chose not to believe.

I’m sorry if you believe there is no God because you think a God wouldn’t allow people to suffer.

I’m sorry if you mistakenly believe that you will have time to accept Jesus after you get done living life your way.

Why am I sorry? Because I would rather accept Jesus and the promise of Heaven and change my life to reflect that, then to live with the belief that after this life there is nothing. This is it. Whether it’s good or bad, this is all you have. If this is what you believe, I can’t imagine how sad your life is. And if I did nothing to encourage you to think about your decision, then I would be even more sorry.

If this life is it – no promise of something better, then how can someone who hasn’t had that good of a life keep going on?

What about the person who can’t get ahead, who is beat down at every turn? They have nothing to look forward to as their days go by with nothing going right.

What about the teenager who gets bullied in school, day after day, with no one to stand up for them? Their parents care more about their drug buy than them. They are told there is no God because if there was then their life wouldn’t be like this. So live with it. They have nothing to look forward to.

What about the young man just out of school who thinks he has time to make something of himself and suddenly told he only has a few months to live? This man whose parents raised him to believe there was no God. To enjoy life and make the most of it. He has nothing to look forward to.

These people haven’t had a life they are proud of on earth and they have nothing to look to. Nothing they believe in.

But what about that person who has everything? Life is good, money is good, relationship is good. Nothing could go wrong. Why believe in something good after you die when you have everything good right now? Then that person is dropped to the floor by a sharp pain shooting down left arm. Nothing can be done. Everything that person lived for gone.

Then there’s the woman that had failed relationship after relationship. But she would not believe in a God that killed her child. She would make it. And she does. Things start to look up. Right guy with plenty of money. Then there’s that lump. The one she tried to ignore. Finally checks it out and gets told the cancer has spread. There’s nothing they can do. She has only a short time left. This life was all she had and now it’s going to be gone. But she doesn’t believe so what does she have to look forward to? Darkness.

The saddest though is the teenagers. They believe there is a God – there’s just time to get to know Him later. Not right now. It will cramp their style. Joyriding. Missed stop sign. Crash with a semi-truck. Four lives gone in a second. Never having that chance to make their life right.

For those that don’t believe – I’m sorry. And I feel sorry for you.

All you have is this life and no matter how hard you convince yourself that you are in control, you aren’t. Things can change in a minute. In a second and everything can be gone. You could be gone. Whether your life is good or bad, whether you’re happy or sad, young or old – if you do not believe then all you have to look forward to is darkness. Closing your eyes and – nothing.

That would scare me to death.

So I’m sorry you believe that way. That you don’t know how it feels to know you have a home waiting. Where you will feel no pain. Where you will see loved ones again. Where there will be no darkness, no evil, no sorrow.

I’m sorry you don’t know what faith is – the faith to believe that God exists even though He allows evil to run rampart on this earth right now. But I know without a doubt that the day will come when evil will be destroyed.

I’m sorry that you don’t know what love is – the kind of love that God has for us to send His Son to die so we don’t have to.

I’m sorry you see the sickness and evil in this world and think that God is supposed to make it all go away right now.

I’m sorry that you are one of the ones that believe that everything is supposed to go right all the time if you believe. God never promised that. When you accept Jesus as your Savior, nowhere does it say that He will become your genie and make all your wishes come true. Nowhere does it say that you’ll become invincible and not suffer.

I’m sorry that you chose the pleasures of this world instead of choosing the pleasures God has waiting.

I’m sorry that you have not accepted Him.

I’m sorry I’ll be in Heaven and you won’t.

I’m sorry.

 

ARE YOU LISTENING LORD?

Do you ever wonder that?  You pray and pray and pray but things do not change. Or they don’t change quick enough. So you volunteer for one more Bible group to lead and sign up for one more Bible study. After all God has called you to serve so the more things you do for Him means He will finally answer your prayers right?

Wrong.

So maybe the question should be are you listening to the Lord?

Yes, we are to serve God. He has given each and every one of use unique abilities to use to glorify Him. But when you do nothing but serve and you do not spend time with Him ALONE, how can you grow in your faith? How can you hear His voice? How do you know you are going in the right direction? When you get too busy to seek God, then you aren’t doing what He wants you to do.

This is something that I am learning even though it’s not actually like I’ve been too busy serving. Several years ago I tried missionary work believing that was what God had called me to do. And while I was blessed by it, and hopefully those children I interacted with were blessed also, after two years I knew that it wasn’t my calling. So I’ve went for several years without actually serving in any capacity. Last year the opportunity arose for me to volunteer for an online Bible Study group and I’ve been blessed beyond measure. This group is amazing. My problem is I feel like I should be doing more, but the doors have not been opening up.

We are starting a study January 25th on Lysa Terkeurst’s book “Becoming More Than A Good Bible Study Girl.” And let me just say that this is really hitting home. Though I’ve not been TOO busy serving, there is the possibility that I’m pushing to serve more because I think I need to make up for the time when I wasn’t serving God. I’m wanting to please God so I am trying to be busy for Him to please Him.

Deuteronomy 4:29
But from there you will seek the Lord your God and you will find Him if you seek Him with all your heart and with all your soul.

That is what pleases God. Seeking Him. Coming before Him and giving Him your heart and soul. Resting in Him.

I actually asked myself some time back what does God need me to do. NEED. You ever get that little voice that speaks to you after you ask a ridiculous question? Yeah, me too. God doesn’t NEED us. He’s the master of the universe, creator of all things. He can do anything. He wants us to NEED Him. To WANT Him. While He wants us to serve Him, He wants us to spend time with Him.

Something else to think about.

If you actually serve God in some way that He didn’t call you to, then you’ve taken someone else’s place, and you’ve taken the blessing that they would have received because they were obedient to God.

Ouch!

And how are you going to know unless you spend time with God?

My prayer is that God only opens the doors that He wants me to go through. My goal is to never be so busy that I forget to spend time with God.

God Bless!

 

To sign up for Proverbs 31 Online Bible Study #BecomingMore, go here.

 

HAPPY NEW YEAR #Write365 #Shoot365 & #BeThankful365

Therefore if anyone is in Christ, he is a new creation; old things have passed away; behold all things have become new. 2 Corinthians 5:17

As 2016 starts, I don’t think I’m going to try to “forget” the past. There have been so many times that I’ve tried to run or hide from my past without stopping to realize that my past has made me. What I vow to do this year is to learn from the past and move forward. To make things new.

For several years, I’ve started the year out hiding, having no contact with people, and playing mindless computer games all day long. Today, while it was a late start due to trying to fight a cold (just let me insert here that I absolutely love peppermint oil!), I started this New Years day with #FirstFive, phone calls and texts to family and friends, and planning all the cool projects I’m going to be a part of.  #Write365 and #Shoot365 are a first for me and it’s due to the amazing ministry God brought into my life last year and allowed me to be a part of. So this year I’ll be participating in P31OBS, writing everyday, and taking a picture everyday for 365 days! Well, technically 366 because it’s leap year! How awesome is that??

Realizing that I have so much to be thankful for also made me realize that I need to actually thank God everyday. So while it may not be an official group project (yet), for me I am committing to #BeThankful365. I will thank God everyday for 365 (366) days even on days that I don’t feel very thankful.

All in all I’m looking forward to 2016 and having faith (which is my word for the year) that God will carry me through. God Bless ya all!